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Fluctuating. Why can’t You see Me from Here?

Updated: Jan 16

by Janice Brown

hand trying to catch the sun, playing peek a boo  with the light. Why can't you see me from here?

Why can’t You see Me from here?

This is the benefit of knowing the difference between your DarkPath and your Progression Path.


Once you know who you are, the expectation is that you will always be a certain way. And the more likely truth is that you will fluctuate. You come in and out of congruence with a certain state only to be in awareness of one way of being or another.


Now, once you understand this more clearly, it’s going to make a lot more sense. Let me tell you a little story about You and Me and We.

 

Ok. Here goes.


The other night I was thinking to myself, I wonder why it’s been so long since I’ve been in the neighborhood I used to live in before? And when I went for a stroll and I knocked on your door, you looked at me like I’d never seen you before.

 

This is known as turtlenecking to some, but to me it’s a life skill. You’ve got to be able to stick your neck out from time to time just to be certain that you are on the right wavelength to connect with another. And I’ll try and explain this in a more straightforward way.

 

When you’ve been understanding yourself in a new way of being, from time to time, you are going to feel like you are very alone, and this is not the aloneness of isolation or the semi-transparent state of 'I can’t see myself this way' any longer. It’s the get down to business state of knowing who I am. And 'being who I am' is the most important thing for each of us.


Ok. Skip around with me for a bit.


Why can’t You see Me from Here?

We’re going to go on a journey from the conscious mind to the subconscious mind and back again.


Where were you when you looked at me and said, ‘I can’t believe that you are here?’

  • At home?

  • On a sidewalk?

  • Out with a friend for a beer?


Now does it matter where you met? Not in terms of street sense, i.e., absolute location. But it does matter in terms of time zone. And you might be thinking I’m talking about lateral time zones from East to West but I’m referring to Vertical time zones from Here to There.

 

Oooo ok. That’s interesting!


We have different frame of reference points in different states of conscious awareness, and this is what is called a Vertical LightPath. And we each have them. For Me it’s one stratosphere, and for You it’s another. And that’s going to bring home some old roosters to roost, and some new ones who fly away, and some quite frankly, that don’t see you at all.

 

So the next time you’re out at the shopping mall and someone is sitting right there and looking you in the face and doesn’t seem to see you at all, it’s not that they are being rude or ignorant; it’s that they just might be in another time zone that doesn’t belong to You and Me.

 

And what I mean is that there is a common plane of understanding, and for convenience sake, I’ll call this WE. The WE plane.


But for practical purposes, it’s fundamentally a new state of awareness. And that may seem like a woo-eee thing to say, but what I mean is, it's a bit like going to the grocery store to buy something you've always bought and they moved the item to a different aisle. It's not that you dont recognize the place its just that the layout is a little different. In fact it's so familiar that you might feel as though you've skipped a beat because...'Wasn't it just right here a moment ago?'


And so this is what conscious awareness is like. Sometimes we isolate a piece of our own awareness without even knowing it, but there will be signs that you are understanding something new, or differently. Often, its just the selfcheck you do or say to yourself or someone else like, 'That's weird...I could have sworn that (fill in the blank)...was just there a moment ago.' Don't be alarmed by these moments, just quietly take note of these experiences.


And here's the thing: Awareness is a tool that helps you be where you need to be, do what you need to do. And the awareness that 'I am isolating myself by remaining in a path that can no longer serve me the same way it always has', is IMPORTANT. It helps you identify a conscious point to move forward towards Progression.


Progression is a place we meet to free ourselves from the bounds of uncertainty. It is our bedrock. The place that gives us our own sense of stability, and we must, MUST spend time in our Progression, or we’ll quickly find that we can’t see another way of being who we are, other than being who we ain’t, or quite simply vanishing into a spark of light.


Progression gives us our purchase through the threshold of fear into a new land of discovery about the self. And ‘The Self’ is the name of the game from now on. And now, I know that sounds just a wee bit (WE-bit) selfish but it is not.


It can not be said more profoundly than this:


We can never remain in the land of 'who we want to be',
without at first casting ourselves far from the shadows of doubt.

And doubt is what keeps you bound, but not in terms of a tether, in the sense of a misunderstanding about who you are and what this life is about.


This life is fundamentally about being who you are. And that is the gift of SolePath; it defines terms like Lateral Thinker in a completely different way. And when you walk away from this definition you might think it’s kind of a play on words, but we’re not talking about semantics; we are talking fundamentally about the nature of being.


And if that doesn’t stop you in your tracks, then you’re probably not quite there yet.


But if you’ve been journeying around opening and closing all the doors and not finding what you were looking at before, you just might have levelled up (pause) or down, and I don’t mean that in a negative way. I mean, you just might be zigzagging through time zones in your conscious state of awareness.


And things look different from Here to There and in-between.


And so that’s what I mean; you’ve just got to stop and take stock sometimes of what it is that has been going on around you.

  • What has been happening that makes a lot of sense?

  • And what has been happening that makes no sense at all?


That’s a zigzag. It’s like the Doppler effect coming in and out of range. Once it’s in range, you have a new awareness, but until you cross that threshold, you’re kind of idling in inner space time. And inner space time is all about what’s yours and mine from a different perspective.


And once you cross the boundary into a new awareness of being, we are talking about WE-time. And that looks like a place where We can connect in normal conversation without the conflict of the daily reason.


We are far more likely to do this when we have spent some time by ourselves, because it’s like a focus wheel of clarity.

  • Where do I want to be?

  • What do I want to do when I get there?

  • How can I bifurcate my trajectory without splitting myself in half?


This is what we do all the time without knowing it or recognizing it for what it is. We split ourselves off from one state of awareness and venture around looking for another. You might call this 'ruminating' or 'thinking about one thing while doing another', but in actuality it’s a splitting of your consciousness awareness into different states or thresholds of being so that you are neither Here nor There; you are somewhere in the in between. And let’s face it, most of us have spent a lot of our lives doing this without even really realizing that is what we are doing.


So we want to talk about new skill sets of awareness so that if you are walking along and suddenly find yourself bifurcating in a new direction without quite knowing how to get home, that you have a clear way to move to find the place where the porch light is always on.


It’s called your differentiated state of consciousness because it’s the place where You can see high and low tones very clearly, or 'the place that makes Me feel better' and 'the place that makes Me feel worse'.


And so while we are talking about this, we could just really say, my DarkPath and my LightPath. And there are two vertical LightPaths (Joyful and Progression), and that is for your own benefit.


It’s like you need a place for your eyes to adjust before you go racing out into the sunny day after you’ve come out of a really dark room. It’s really as simple as that. Once your eyes start to adjust, you can start to see what was just a formless shape a moment ago because your eyes were being shaded from the light, but also so you don’t get those weird spots like you get when you stare at the sun.


The Progression LightPath lets you dial it into focus.


And for the time being, that’s where you’re going to want to spend the majority of your time. It’s like dangling your toes in the water while the rest of you is lying comfortably on the dock. Just easy going, a place to lie steady and see how the day takes shape around you.


And I have to say this is different for You and Me, and finally it’s a platform or a stage where we can begin to become We.


But again, We, takes time.


And time is what we’re talking about. No doubt! Just a moment ago was ‘never before’ and the next moment might be ‘never again’. And that’s simply left for you to find out.


But until you do know, there is something you can do like never before, and that is simply be who you are in congruence. And congruence only means you being more You for You than Me for Me. And that’s only a distinction because we are all finding our way home across a crowded land that suddenly fades away into a new stratosphere of understanding and awareness. 


And when you’re standing Here for the first time, it can feel like a stranger in a strange land experience. But you are safe and always will be. It’s just a matter of knowing You from You, and Me from Me; because finally, in togetherness, we are WE. And WE is a very special place.


So don’t fret about where You are going or whether you’ve been there before already and then forgot how to get home. Getting home is the easy part; it’s always about following your Heart.


But if you’re lost, and I don’t come about, know there’s a way, for You to find out.


And that’s why we talk about these things here. Because it can be a little disconcerting fumbling around in the dark looking for light switches. But we’ve got them. We know what it is you need and how to move from Here to There. We’ve built a room full of understanding, and it’s called the Library of Record, and you’re going to find it’s the surest way to come home.


Wherever You go, There You are.

Wherever I go, Here I am. You see?

Wherever We go, WE are.

 

And that’s union. That’s friendship. That’s life. That is Love.

 

Safe journey. Come home safe and sound.

 

These are my Progression and Joyful Vertical LightPaths:

I am a Progression Spiritual Warrior and I am a Joyful Intellectual Lateral Thinker.

My DarkPath is Dark Intellectual Controller. These three Paths together are my SolePath, I like to think of it as My framework of perception.

 

**SolePath is the work and creation of Dr. Debra Ford Msc.D. You can learn more about SolePath and the Vertical LightPaths in the material she has been publishing since 2009. Click here.



May We all be who We Are.

 


Janice



I’ve been working with the Tao as long as I’ve lived; and so have you. Here’s what that means to me, I’m a problem solver and I use the Tao as a framework for my discussion. In my writing and my work, I share with you how I use it, and you can decide if that’s helpful for you or not.


I writes from the Heart in the moment, specifically from my point of view. You may not have seen it this way before, but that's the whole point—to turn it around and look at it another way. I like to explore metaphysical concepts with a high level of certainty punctuated by moments of playful curiosity.

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Janice works, writes and creates in Whitehorse on the traditional territories of the Ta'an Kwäch'än Council and the Kwanlin Dün First Nation.

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